WorldToChina

      For no reason did I choose this title. Today’s rainy. The sandstorm came just so suddenly early this morning. It woke me up by shouting wildly between the blocks. Dashed out of bed, I got all the clothes back into the dorm. Though none of them is mine, I just like the feeling of being a hero.

      Back into my solitude, together with my roomates I slept until it was 10 a.m. Recently, I feel dizzy and a little bit hypodynamic. (Hue~ sorry for the big word. ) But it seems all the pages are full of my laziness, coziness or depression. Sometimes I’m just living in my fatasy, bringing myself lots and lots of ups and downs in mood.

      I don’t know whether it is a common fault among girls or something. I’m just fed up with this kind of emotional disorder.

      In a rainy day like this, I am lost in missing you and the grief that you may never know my gloom about you. Sorry for my mawkish thinking of you.

      This afternoon, the teacher had us dismissed 10 minutes in advance, for all of us were distracted by the coming holiday and showed no concentration at all to the lecture.

      Several friends of mine are goin’ to take the coming days off to have a journey. One is on the train to Beijing now, the other two heading for Baoji. When asked what is my plan for the May Day, I am short of words, cause’ I have nothing in mind. I’d rather stay on campus than to be squeezed in the buses or trains and then go to supermalls full of people.

      I think now I am quite used to the tranquil and peaceful life of staying here, having almost nothing excithing at all. Sometimes, I was wondering “Am I still young”?

     Tomorrow morning, I am going to get up at 8:00am and go to have my simple and routine breakfast in the student catine. Have my selfstudy until lunch time. The rest of the day is to be carried out strictly according to the schedule, though I’ve never intended as such.

    NOTHING special recently, except for this only-myself afternoon in the dorm.

    Two went to Chengdu for a competition as I’ve mentioned before, and the only other one is having a conference of Model UN on our campus, leaving only me hear taping the KB. As a matter of fact, I am always left alone. Even sometimes when all of them are on campus, they would go out with there BFs and won’t come back until late in the night…

    Then what? I’m just finding nothing seems satisfying. I’m fed up with all these.  My life has been a repetition for long– bein’ awake or asleep, then nothing more. This is why I am wondering what I am here at the foot of the great montain for. To witness the fading of my youth or something?

This afternoon, two out of my four roommates will get on the train heading Chengdu. They are goin’ to have a contest for business planning and business speech delivering. How I envy them of such a good opportunity to participate in a competition like that and the chance to go to C.D.

      They’ve been busy with the complex preparation for quite a long time. I’m confident that their effort will be rewarded. Have a good journey my dear friends! I may you good luck and success!!

      The May Day is approaching. Some of my friends are planning to travle. Top on their list are Chongqing, Beijing and Qingdao. To be honest, we’ve long been confined in the cage namely campus. A short distant travel is never a waste. It’s rather a release and refreshment. However, I should wait until passed the BEC Vantage, and even until the summer vacation come. I don’t have any explaination for this decision. It’s only kinda commitment to myself. So PATIENCE!

      Today is so dull. Actually my life has been dull for a couple of years already.

       Woke up late this morning. It was almost time for lunch. Dumbly, I had my meal with papa and sis. Then I went to the net bar to kill all the time I have in hand. Generally nothing to do. I find it’s quite unreasonable. As a youngester, I wander around all day and all year around. Who are the hell are contrubuting to the world? Is it baby or the old who are keeping world peace, rescuing poverty and making inventions?????

      I really cannot figure out who I am and what am I doin’ now. Just wandering around. Now, it’s time for meal again. I have to go back home to do the only mission I have to finish everyday– chawing down my food…….

      I’m standing at the very end of the year 2007. Only three hours later, the cheering new year 2008 will come to the whole world. Firstly, I’d like to say Happy New Year to everybody!

      2008 is a brand new year to Chinese, because the Beijing Olympic is to be held. We are expecting guests from all over the world to come to our country and enjoy the big event together.

      Also, 2008 is quite meaningful to me personally. I will enter my senior year of college life this year. All’s well that ends well. I hope in the new year, I can learn more and have good luck, happy mood and nice time with my friends!

  It’s raining out side. Darkness surrounds the block. And I am doing my letter here, to share with you my blueness.

  I’ve been sick for around 2 months. I know it’s all my fault, you know,just tarrying to go to the doctor’s. But  the long lasting illness has practically triggerd my gloom.

  He doesn’t know, but every time when he is around, I am uneasy and blushful. I carried this kind of unnaturalness for quite a long time before I decided to tell my heart out. That’s rather a hard decision and I made it on a hard day. That day, one of my best friend told me her adoration for the very guy right before I called him. Damn it! I don’t want to be engaged in this kind of soapie cliche! Let go of the fuchy sacrifice!~

  However, I gave up finally. His cell phone would never ring. God knows whether she was doing it purposely or it just a coincidence. But I’ve dicided to quit. The die is cast, only the unresignedness is struggling.

  I am hesitating to let the feeling out, but it really burdens a lot on my heart.